"Guilt doesn't sleep, it eats."
I love that line and if there's one sentence that runs like an electrified rope through this novel, it's that one.
Carver Briggs is being eaten up inside because his three best friends, Mars, Eli & Blake were killed in a car accident at the same time that Carver was texting Mars, who happened to be driving.
Not only does Carver blame himself, the entire town except Eli's ex-girlfriend Jesmyn, seems too as well.
Carver seeks help through psychiatrist Dr. Mendez and with his help he's able to develop coping mechanisms when depression and panic attacks descend upon him like a cloud stuffed with hammers.
This is a story about loss, grief, self-hatred and of course guilt. Guilt that worms its way into your brain and bores you out until you are just a walking husk. An extra for the Walking Dead. Anyone that has experienced guilt of any level with find some level playing field with Carver.
The novels cuts back and forth between Carver's current status, which is dead-bone afraid of what his future holds, and his time with his three best friends. They are typical teenage boys who are silly, dumb yet thoughtful and kind to each other at the same time.
There is a lot of heart in this novel. It's a fantastic read that I will be pushing on the students at the school library I manage with a relentless fury. Check it out if you haven't already.